32: Freedom

fml. haishhh. i hate mum that favourtise people especially siblings. the way she treated me and my younger siblings aren't the same. she gave alot of hard work to do while my siblings just do an easy job. just because what? im older then them. to me, we both have to play apart. thanks ah ibu for ruining my day. -.- appriciate it alotalot. i realise tht the way she treat me and and brother has got a big difference. she joke arnd with him while she always say nasty things about me when i joke around with her. -.- wtf. she loves to slap me with no reason though she was just playing around. but to me, it hurts. not only hurts in the heart, but hurt too in the face. saying me lazy all the time and nag at me because of tht. " kakak lazy eh. ape la dpt anak mcm gini. " like wht rightt? grr. >;( we're both okay when we went out. itu pun kadangkadang. usually when we go out, i wannna buy cotton on, and she said, " tkya, kakak ade bnyk baju kat rumah. " and my adik laki said, " tu ah, taqin chk kat cupboard biha pun ade bnyk. " and i said, " tu semue baju lamelame laaaaa, dah kecik." haaa, tanye la lagi. tk pecaye gi chk nd kemaskan bihanye cupboard. :) -.- somehow i thhnk back and my maybe to me, my mum treat my brother liddat just becaose he's smarter? idk. :(
so anw, about yesterday, i ask my mum too for money when my brother asked her too. and she said, " who wants you to go out? and i said, " huh? " and she said, " who let the permission for you to go out? " from there, i was fucking sad. she let my brother go out but me? is it because i always go out and my brother seldom went out? kalau ibu realise eh, taqin dah pandai keluar skrg. >;( argh. i really hate my family background.